May 20, 1997. FORGIVEME

You...were the only thing that made me smile again when there was nothing left to change. I've dedicated my nights of sleep to you, my sad days have become bright and joyful by your side, every smile, hug, every conversation touches my heart like nothing ever has before. FORGIVEMEWhen you cried, something hit me deeply, hurting more than a slap, and I promised myself I would never let anything happen to you, a promise I couldn't keep.. If you only knew how much I wish I could sFORGIVEMEee you again, and how much I've been fighting ever since you left, not just for myself, but for your siblings too. But don't worry, deep down in my heart, I will never blame you for anything that happened, even though I can never forgive myself, I hope you can forgive me for not being able to protect you and make you happy... Mom loves you, never forget this, please.