find ban hammer catboy in a nyc subway station

i have made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement, and I don’t expect to be forgiven. I’m simply here to apologize. What I photographed in ban lands was completely unplanned. I did not know how to feel when looking at ban hammer catboy. I should have never posted the photograph. I should have put my phone down and stopped taking photos, but I didn't. There's a lot of things I should have done differently, but I didn't. And for that, from the bottom of my heart, I am not sorry. i dont want to apologize to the internet. I wont to apologize to anyone who has seen the photo. I will not apologize to anyone who has accidentally found ban hammer catboy. But, most importantly, I want to apologize to Windforce, for sending it to her, where she blocked me. For people who are defending my actions, please, don't. I don’t deserve to be defended. My goal is always to make something disturbing. The intent is to be cruel and malicious. I will not be better. Thank you.