Legally blind

December 20th "Yesterday I got a call from job centre, they said I need to come to their office after 3 days. Also I found free subscription on russian browser service, it allows me to do lots of things I guess, it also offers music app but what was the last time I listened to music besides ambient and rock, it's unbearable it feels like a task to listen to music. I used to be kind of mushed by all the hardcore or tragic songs I listened to, well don't get me wrong I still listen to them time to time but only one band that I like. Music has become task, games are task, reading is task. I love making something when I truly want to and need it, don't blame yourself for "procrastination" it literally means that you DON'T need what people offer you. I always cheated on works, I always had an easy way and that's why I don't think nowadays that there is some superficial purpose to me, laziness is not a product of bad quality but a pragmatism"