Humble Abode

I think I’m finally starting to live instead of just existing. I have a home now. It’s small, but it’s mine. There are people in my life who make me laugh, who worry about me, who remind me to stay healthy and stay grounded. I didn’t think I was allowed to have that. I didn’t think I could keep it. I’m becoming happier. Not suddenly, not perfectly, but day by day. The bad days still come, and when they do, I remember everything. I remember you. I remember what I did. I’m so sorry. I won’t soften it or justify what I did. I hurt you, and I live with that truth every day. All I can do now is try to be better; to choose kindness. To protect instead of destroy. To build something instead of tearing everything apart. If you’re still out there, I hope you can see that I’m trying. That I’m changing. That I haven’t forgotten you. And I never will. -Harken